Can I have more hours in a day?

 

I wear many hats in this life, I always have.  I am a wife to an awesome man, a mother to two sassy twin toddlers, a cook, or shall a say a slow cooker specialist, a house cleaner (debatable), a student (right now I am on a break until next semester to continue my prerequisites so I can work towards my nursing degree), an actress to my children that sometimes need a bit of extra in their lives… and more. For some reason that just wasn’t enough so I most recently started a small business, so add business owner to that list.

I never understood how people at a young age know exactly what to study, what career to follow, or just know what their purpose in life is.  How is it possible that at 33 years old I just found it and how exactly am I going to juggle all of these roles at the same time, without loosing the importance of being a good wife and mother, getting good grades at school and creating a successful business?  Naturally when I sit down to think about it I get upset that I wasted so much time, but only one thing gives me peace, and that is knowing how could I have started all of this before when my purpose wasn’t revealed to me until after having my kids.

So why start a business?  I’ll tell you… After having the twins and with all of Eva’s medical issues, I realized that people were first intimidated by her, and it makes sense because so was I!  As she got older and around more people, I started to notice an unusual look people would give her and I didn’t understand.  But one day a very young girl, at a Barnes and Nobles came up to Eva and myself and asked, “whats wrong with her?”  That comment confirmed my suspicion that people see her differently.  ***Sidenote, to us she looks “normal” and beautiful obviously because she is our baby grrr.**  The only thing I could think of that may get peoples attention would be her webbed neck, which is part of her syndrome.  Well, I was so livid that the little girls mom said nothing so I went off to cry with her in my arms in between an empty rows of books.  I was sad and confused not understanding how a parent could not correct their child.  I now know that people don’t always know what to say, or do and I get it.  Especially because you will get different answers from many parents that have children with special needs, but if you ask me I would say, just ask in a polite manner because staring is not appropriate in any situation.  I must admit, I am now grateful to have that experience because I knew something had to change.  It made me realize that I  will not always be able to protect my daughter, but I can raise her to be a strong woman and help many people understand that everyone is different, some just don’t hide it and to me, that is enchanting.

My business, peculiarly perfect, is a clothing line with a purpose.  It was created to bridge the gap between children with special needs and curious minds.  I started with just two shirts, one for all kids and another is for kids that have a g-tube.  I have two more designs coming out next month and much more to follow.  I will have shirts for kids that have special needs with a clever design proclaiming their differences, instead of hiding what unique qualities they have.  There will also be shirts for all kids to show support.  More importantly I will be educating the public with a tab on my website called, spotlight child!  This is where there will be a child’s story featured quarterly, along with information  on their condition so kids and adults can become educated and eventually get more comfortable with people who are different than they are.



Will I be busier than before?  Yes.  Do I think its worth it?  ABSOLUTELY!  I thank God I have some direction….. if only there were 48 hr days, instead of 24.

 

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Been there…done that.

I have been there, I have done that and then I more than likely did it again.  I have experimented with many hair colors, styles and cuts.  I have experimented with many piercings and I have many tattoos and I also have plans for many more.  I have done drugs, I have partied all night, and I have lived like a rockstar. I have been a wife to a man who was an infantryman who jumped out of planes and I am still married to the same man who is now a police officer. I am a mother of g/b twins whose first few months were the roughest months of my life.  I have done some pretty terrible things when I was younger and I have said some unforgivable words, but I have been forgiven and I have also forgiven myself (somethings I have to constantly forgive myself for).  I have done so much that my life should have been on a TV show.  I guarantee it would have been very exciting.

Today I was thinking about how low-key my life has been since having the babies and I truly couldn’t be anymore happier.  I don’t have an itch to go out to drink or party anymore and to be honest I haven’t in a long time and it is absolutely wonderful.  On the flip side of that I understand how parents who have children young, and who weren’t able to have a “fun phase” in life tend to do so after their kids get older.  Im glad I got that out of my system when I did.

It’s so interesting that every time I planned on getting pregnant I would obsess about being a mom. Then every time I found out I was in fact pregnant (when I say, “every time”, this includes the pregnancies that resulted in miscarriages) I would immediately freakout about how many things I still wanted to do with my life.  I can honestly tell you after having the twins that thought hasn’t crossed my mind at all.  My selfish thoughts have gone out the window entirely and everything I think of from now on is how to better my family and how can I help other kids.  There is so much I want to do now but it is the totally opposite of the plans I had before becoming a mother.

Its so funny though, before I would drink and I was able to go to work the next morning… a few days ago for my 33rd birthday I had a few sips of wine, the next morning I felt hungover.  Its also so funny that how before, when I used to color my hair for fun, I now how to color my roots around the clock so people still think I’m 25, when I am already in my 30’s.  As much as I want to still get more piercings I don’t want people to think I am trying to hard to look young so I just settle for getting ink…. Im not really settling, I truly love it.

My advice to people who worry about the same things that I did before having the babies is, enjoy yourself and your husband.  Enjoy your sleep, enjoy your vacations, your hobbies, and your freedom.  When you have your baby know that your priority will be that child for the rest of your life.  Your sleep will be nonexistent in the beginning, your time will not be to do what you want, it will be to do what you need to do, and most importantly your heart will no longer be yours.  Just know that it is the hardest job in the world if your doing it right.  Just know that that person needs to depend on your for everything for a long time and it is the most special feeling in the world.  Heck yes it’s hard but it is unbelievably rewarding and you have a chance to raise your child in YOUR own way.  Just make sure your  being responsible and realizing your child has so much potential that can change the world for the better… or the exact opposite.  Choose wisely and more importantly love that little human with all of the love you are able to conjure each and every day.  Thank you God!

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