Sometimes I just need to vent.

I can’t believe things are happening so fast with the babies!  Literally every day things are changing and it makes this job by far the best job I have had in my life.  And that actually means a lot because my work history varies from, working at an ice-cream company, to a go go dancer,  a legal assistant to a makeup artist, and this is just to mention a few.  Originally, these kids were the reason for my premature grey hair they are now the reason for my daily smiles and laughs that I have all day

Eidan is such a big boy!  He is repeating words on a regular basis.  His favorite words as of today are, circle, sit down, sissy, daddy, mama, and Shana.  His communication is incredible and his tantrums can be either prevented altogether or resolved with a reach out for him to hug me, I console him and I say, “all done?” and he then repeats, “all done” and walks off.  He really loves his sissy and that makes me the happiest mom in the world.  I especially appreciate that when Eva comes and destroys anything Eidan makes, he just continues on without a hesitation. Oh my heart!

Now Eva has truly come a long way.  I have started experimenting for a few days now, gravity feeding her instead of using the pump and I am amazed.  She is now being fed for only 20 minutes instead of a miserable hour and a half, not to mention having to vent her is little to none now.  I ACTUALLY PUT HER TO BED WITHOUT HAVING TO VENT HER TONIGHT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN EVA HISTORY!!!!!  I truly could not see our lives without having to vent her until she was completely off of the tube but I now feel the day is just a few away.  This is kind of a big deal, simply because we have avoided taking the babies many places because it is very difficult taking everything, and having to prepare for venting her in public (which is alot harder than anyone can imagine).  When we did take them out we had an hour of a window to do something with them then we had to bring them home ASAP to keep them on their feeding schedule.  Now we can actually go out and let them enjoy this beautiful world!  Oh my, the possibilities!   For anyone who doesn’t know what venting is, it is when you have to lay the child on the floor and open(release) the gtube extension into a tube to release any built up air in the belly because she is unable to burp by mouth, so essentially it is like burping her just through her g-tube.  It needs to be done because the air will build up and cause her to wretch, which is uncomfortable for anyone, especially a baby.  

Tomorrow Eva and I will be having a girls night… just kidding, she has a sleep study at the hospital from 7pm until 7am.  The study will determine if she has sleep apnea. If she does, the study will determine how bad it is, and the ENT will either suggest surgery now, later or never.  I am hoping we will be able to sleep with no problem and we will be home in time for breakfast.  Daddy will be having a boys night and party all night! JK, until 7:30 then lights out.

I am so proud of our little family.  Especially my husband.  He has been working really hard for us.  He has been working extra jobs galore and I rarely see him throughout the week.  I always knew how blessed I was to have him but the fact that he picked me has always made me question his sanity.  He’s such a badass, even though he gets on my nerves and vice versa.  I must have done something really awesome to have ended up with him.  Thank you Lord!

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Eva Kirley Devereux

Eva has had an extremely challenging Journey already in her now, 18 months of living here on this earth.  To best sum up her past and current health issues I will simply type out the list of her most recent clinical summary along with links to help explain what each are… Turners Syndrome,SVT (supraventricular tachycardia), Nissen fundoplication (with gastrostomy tube placement/g-tube), premature infant, PFO (patent foramen ovale), pericardial effusion, mitral valve stenosis, milk protein intolerance, lymphedema, lymphatic malformation (cystic hygroma), IUGR (intrauterine growth restriction), hydronephrosis, esophageal reflux, dysphagia, cystic renal dysplasia, congenital stenosis of aortic valve, coarctation of aorta, bicuspid aortic valve.

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Baby Eva.

Little Eva was in the NICU from the day she was born, September 2, 2014 until January 21, 2015.  Before she left she hospital she had her first heart surgery at 8 days old, she had a fundoplication/g-tube surgery at 4 months old and countless X-rays, scans, IV’s and needles.  Before she left the hospital I am pretty sure she thought many of her nurses were her mom instead of me.  Yes, I went every day (not including the week I was sick and unable to see her) but what I failed to mention was I that I was only able to stay a few hours each day (unless she was having surgery where I never left her side), but my time with her in the hospital was not enough.

Her first Heart Surgery was on September 10, 2014 and it was to repair her aortic coarctation with a subclavian flap.  Her h/r Her surgeon took 8 minutes to do the repair, boy was he fantastic… and a bit strange.  As soon as they put her in a PICU room so she could be monitored closely, her nurse gave me a bumblebee pendant with a poem on it.  That was the first time I allowed myself to cry since the babies were born.  I cried for so long when I was left alone in the room with her as she was fighting so hard.  My emotions were held in for so long I could have cried for a for days, or even years.

Her balloon angioplasty in her heart (because of a recoarctation) was November 18th, 2014. This procedure was not supposed to be a stressful procedure but we are a family that doesn’t play by the rules.  She developed a pseudo aneurism and she needed to be monitored in the PICU for a few days.  Because of her syndrome, it effects her tissue and makes her very unpredictable during certain procedures.  She healed nicely but it was mentioned that this was the first time her doctor had seen an aorta need to be intervened so soon after a surgery.  I believe it was at this point that I realized that when any doctor told me not to worry, maybe I should.

The fundoplication/g-tube surgery was mid December, 2014, and it was the one surgery we hesitated on doing.  Nothing about it felt right and looking back we wished we would have looked at other options.  Her healing for this surgery was a nightmare.  She was in pain much longer than they expected and the primary concern for her having this surgery, was her “reflux”, which was still there even after the surgery.  You can imagine our anger and guilt that followed and we still carry with us after this disaster.  There is a small percentage of people that have had a fundoplication, develop a complication called gas bloat syndrome, that prevents them from burping on their own…. well yes, that also happened.  She still struggles with this currently and we have to vent her g-tube often.   That means we have to allow the gas from her stomach escape so she doesn’t feel uncomfortable and start gagging.

Ironically just like her brother, a few days before she was to go home she apparently stopped breathing.  This traumatizing day was December 23, 2014, two days before Christmas.  Nobody was able to tell us exactly what happened, all we know is her nurse was holding her, she started crying and turned blue.  They had to give her air and she started taking breaths again.  After this ordeal I was in absolutely no rush to get her home, but little did I know almost a month later, she would be home with us trying to adapt to a life outside the hospital.

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Eva leaving the hospital, January 21, 2014.