When Eidan and Eva were born I can honestly say that I had no idea how to feel. I left the hospital 3 days after having them, empty handed. Eidan was still at The Woman’s Hospital of Texas, where they were both born and Eva was sent to Memorial Hermann Hospital where they were better prepared for her medical needs. I had to leave my babies in the hands of people I never met before. Some nurses I still keep in touch with, and some I met only one time in my life… one day/night where they took care of my new little treasures.
I was going every day to both hospitals to check on them. I still had preeclampsia (it lasted for a few months after having them) so my feet and ankles were constantly swollen, and I was recovering from the c-section. So I would be wheeled through both hospitals, assuming we could find a wheelchair that day and if we couldn’t I would walk like a decrepit old lady taking baby steps, leaning all of my body weight on my husband through both hospitals. It was rough as hell.
I was too busy pumping every 3 hours (night and day), and running from hospital to hospital to do anything else, to notice anything else. Showering, eating and sleeping were not in my agenda for a few months. I was a zombie, like the walking dead zombie, but not really because at least they ate. Sometimes I didn’t remember the drive home from the hospital which looking back concerns me. If anyone would have told me to slow down its not like I would have listened anyway. I had to see them everyday because they were my children and they were my responsibility. It was my duty as a mother. I was a mother now. I am a mom. I have twins. Almost a year and a half its still so strange to me.
On September 2, 2014, I was 34 weeks and 5 days pregnant, going in for my weekly doctors appointment when she told me that not only is baby girl still not growing and having unusual heart issues but baby boys heart is doing something unusual so today is the day were taking them out. The only thing going through my mind at that point was after today I will officially be a mother. A mother to possible twins, assuming baby girl does well and at this point also baby boy.
After a few hours of being monitored it was time for the whole sha-bang. They took me into the white room, where I got my epidural and soon after where there was a white sheet covering my belly and below. As soon as the doctor came in, I knew it was time. Dad was able to come in and there they go cutting away. I remember I was freezing to the point that it distracted my mind from everything that was going on and thats probably a great thing.
They were born 10:23 pm and 10:24 pm. Our son Eidan came out first weighing 4.5 lbs and oh my goodness he was a dream come true. He was having heart issues because he was wrapped around his umbilical cord four times. Thank God the doctor took him out that day. Our daughter, Eva weighed 3.5 lbs and was hauled away and I didn’t get to see her until I was in recovery where they brought her to me and informed me they would be sending her to another hospital the same night. Comes to find out on the Apgar score she rated between a 2-3. She wasn’t doing the best but she was alive and she literally came out fighting like a champ.
When I first saw Eva, she was in a incubator and it was very difficult to see her without wondering what her future was going to look like. She was very puffy all over with severed edema on her hands and feet. Under her head there was a pillow of skin (called a cystic hygroma) that sat under her head. We knew these things were there because it is part of turners syndrome and thanks to the ultrasounds it gave us an idea of how large it these things were, but nothing could prepare us for how it looked like in person.
When I went into my room after recovery I was left exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally. As I look back I realized something special… I feel like if Eva wouldn’t have survived the pregnancy Eidan would have either, and, if Eidan wasn’t having trouble with his umbilical cord and forced us to have the c-section that day, then I believe Eva wouldn’t have been able to survive much longer. So in a way they both saved each other.